From one girl to another

Tonight (Saturday) I’m heading out to a leaving do for one of my “friends”. She’s going overseas for a bit and a whole bunch of us are heading to a pub to see her off.

If only it was that simple.

At this party tonight will be:

1 ex-girlfriend from years and years ago

1 current “fuck” buddy – but I want to end it with her

1 girl who I kissed once and who decided we were suddenly dating because of that (I had to let her down and she didn’t take it too well)

Complicated? Here are some more factors to the story.

The ex-girlfriend I mentioned is the same girl that is going overseas. She is the first girl that I tried anal sex with. She is the first girl that I tried oral sex on and she is one of three girls I’ve ever met that I think I could have spent my life with (although I’ve never told her that). So there’s definitely some emotional attachment there.

I’d like to think I could have sex with my ex-girlfriend one more time before she leaves but that ship sailed along time ago.

The “fuck buddy” is actually the South African girl I’ve been mentioning in this blog over the past couple of weeks. To me, we’re just having some fun on the weekends. To her, I’m not quite sure. She gets upset if I don’t say that I “like” her every now and then. She also wants to see me quite a bit during the week. So my instinct in all of this is that she wants something more than just bedroom antics.

And the girl I kissed, who then decided we were dating, is just a little bit crazy. This happened a while ago so I think (and hope) that she’s over it now.

All of which means life could get very interesting for yours truly tonight. So much so that I’ve considered not going. At this rate I’m just going for one or two drinks then I’m heading home. I don’t want to get drunk, say something stupid then spend the next week feeling completely embarrassed. I’m just going to go there, have a few laughs, say goodbye and then head home.

You never know – just to make things more complicated I might meet someone else. I’ll let you know how I get on …